building and jigging the pieces to this puzzle
never seems to have begun and no end in sight
but the process continues, forver ongoing
there's something to it that twists me
distorted shapes mirror image in the smoke
forgetting to remember who i am, who i was
future molds and shapes who i will be
matters not this moment of confusion
i struggle to not want desire to take hold
desire not lust, desire not love, desire
reaching out into darkness to find nothing
all alone, desire wraps cold arms around me
and i cry, cry under the water over my face
shaking alone, loneliness, unadmittable
i suck it up and push loneliness alone
there is only.... there is only...
me to rely on me
me to hold on me
me to count on me
me to comfort me
and i realize, time to intiate the next step
take hold, thrive and survive for the best
believe internally in me eternally
chin up, I can do this for me
