And I scream
And I cry out loud
Something inside breaks....
Black and blue inside healing wounds
Opened and scabbed and closed again
Fresh blood flows as the rage gives wave
Never forgetting and feeling the anger below
Believe in me the strength to succeed and love
And above all else, love myself and my family
Somethings never forgotten like nightmares
Never letting go of the unhealthiness
Wrapped around me like an invisible tarp
Closed off inside and watching the world within
Silently screaming as my body is paralyzed and silent
I want to be free from this grasp and greedy shadow consuming
I scream
I roar
and want something more
Alone and lonely but not really at all
That silent voice tells me otherwise
Brings me down from within
The spy aims to win
Never having that full control needed to win
Letting that fear take a hold of me and the best of me
Why not let go and take control and to go with the flow
The shadow's manipulation tries to shift my views and win
Stay on the road ahead and sobriety will win above all
Take that conviction, that control and live and love
I know that strength exists and lives hidden
Come break me out of my shell and thrive
I contemplate
I sleep
It is never too late.
