Time Slowly

Time moves at such different speeds. Over the last little bit, it's been quickly moving by slowly. So much happening all at once but taking it's time.

Matters of the heart

It spills over empty and nauseous
Nothing is left inside to hide or to conceal
Over and over again, purging everything
Letting the water run through me, through my pores, through my eyes

Something gave, like a dam, it broke
Breathing helps calm it down
Don't know what gave
Don't know what to say
Something broke down and I'm left wading in the water, eye level

Drag me back out and breath air in me
Drag me out and wake me up from this
My heart cries out "I want more!"
I soothe "in time, in time"
What needs to be done... What fears must be faced...
What walls need to be torn down and dismantled
What work needs to be done before I can be free

I see...

I look before me at all the possibilities and the maybes
I cry as I see them as i do not see the lines to them
Sadness over takes me... I am back at my apartment
Today I saw more possibilities and wonders
Reminded of what I do not have but wish for daily

Sing the song of a million hearts
Sing the song of a blank slate
Sing the song of... hope

"It will all come together", I say
Something inside me prays silently
I keep fighting and fighting
Willing to give in and find the means
... to release, to let go, to be free
For a short time to remind me

Sing the song of a million hearts
Sing the song of a broken slate
Sing the song of.... desire

Can never quite give up, reminder
The tears that I fight with daily
They will always remember me
Soon, soon... I say, soon, soon.

When I was 17...

The memory of being 17 and wanting to get away
I dreamed, yearned and wanted to have more
More is what I got
More is something I should have carefully asked for
I ran away
But I came back....

The reality of being 25 and wanting to get away
I dream, yearn and want more
More is what I will have
More is what I will carefully wish for
I will leave
But I will come back only to visit...