Moving Forward

Sharing stirs up unease
Comfortable enough to talk
Deep down it is still fresh
Just want to sleep

Trust does not come easy
Not something to be forced
Follow your heart and be free
Follow your mind and be aware
Follow your gut and be safe

Talking gets easier every time
The wounds heal a bit more, slowly
Changes your perception over again
Just want to not cry

Hold my head steady
While my hands shake
Smile to make the world brighter
Watching the world through sad eyes

Heading in the right direction
Just remember how far I have come
The place has not changed by I have
Be proud, always

It is nothing

I fake the joy, the glee
Smile with the fake smile
Life becomes dull
The world silent
Nothing can resurrect me
Words mean nothing
Words fall on deaf ears
Bounce off a cold heart
It still bleeds warm
The heart cries out
While tears are held back
Meaningless and painful
It becomes pointless
Complacency takes it hold
Finally, takes it's place
Three years fighting
Three years for what
To come to this moment
To come to this point in life
Nothing really matters
Nothing feels special
I hold my own piece of joys
Furry friends have my heart
The rest grows cold and unused
I scream to wake me
I scream to keep me alive
Pump, Pump, Pump
The heart starts to slow down
It means nothing
I repeat to myself
The world is what it is
No changing how it is
Just go with the flow
Pulsing, I hemorrhage
Mind rest easy
The world slows down
Live and let live
It doesn't matter
Take another drink
Sleep another sleepless night
Take another deep breath
It is what it is
It is what it is

Strings

Looking for strings to pull the answers out of the air
Nothing but dust falls into my hair
Into the tangled webs we weave
Inside my heart turns to mush
Feel the pull, feel the push

The stars swim above my head
But I can only see red
Hot and pulsing it flows through
The anger and frustration within
Feeling as though I will never win

Singing songs of bliss and joy
Singing songs of misery and pain
Singing songs of memories
Songs of hope

Into the haze I pull through my day
Feels like I lost most of my way
Seven months have since disappeared
Look back and see a shadow of me
Look at how different I can be

The road is long and tiresome
This is only a sign of things to come
Breaking hearts, ignoring my own
Keep the focus away,
Just for another day